Jolted

We all have stories or memories that jolt us awake at night or make us quickly and violently shake our heads to clear the memory of such an event in our lives. I had a jolt the other night... I was back in Iraq remembering the fact that I forgot my clear-lensed glasses so I could see clearly without tears flooding my vision as I rode in the gunner's hatch of a an up-armored "hummer". I remmeber the three men with AK's and RPG's that in the middle of the night decided it was time to shoot at me ....and I remember depressing the trigger of a light machine gun with a laser clearly painted onto the chest of the center man and effectively cutting these gents in half.....I remember dreaming about the 6 hour "firefight"that ensued that night and the bullwhip snaps that are indicative of bullets flying ever so closely to your own head...the "ting ...ting...ting" of bullets slamming into your truck from some very angry people to your front/left.

Then being teleported via dreamscape to the scene of which you dealt with a dying child who was shot in the chest and having the bullet travel in such a way that it took all but a sliver of her pancreas out of her lower right side and exiting her young body and slamming into her 4 year old sisters leg .....then you are transported to the helicopter ride in which you stabilized this young girl so she could get surgery at your base ......and how you stood outside the surgery suite for 4 hours waiting for this innocent child to make it ........only because you can't help but think of your own sweethearted daughter who you know you would do anything for......thats when I'm jolted awake...........man I miss war...........

Zymurgy

I have been looking for a new hobby for quite awhile and I have officially become a Zymurgist. I have created such amazing craft brews and tasty ales! I can safely say at least to myself that it has become an obsession of mine and I'm getting good at doing it.....maybe I should've gotten a puppie

Solve

I ordered SOLVE stickers today at solvestickers I will plaster these here in my town to remember a man who I did not know personally but through his wonderful sister learned a great deal about.

I find that the morning sun lighting my wall in my apartment the most beautiful thing I will see all day. I find that when I'm not home for awhile I miss my train. I told someone this weekend that I feel very alone up in my apartment all by myself and my thoughts and my wants and desires to have a mate and a friend and this was the response "Yeah I don't know what I would do without my dogs". I cannot get back my babies being little munchkins I gave that up for a career that doesn't care for idle things like that. I'm scared that I have a problem with drinking due to the fact that for an entire month I have been drunk every night just so I can feel good about being so alone that I talk to myself.

Amazing